i'm working on writing a book, and i was going to put the following into that book, but i think it serves it's purpose better if it's freely available in this blog about schizophrenia. this is unedited though so it's 100% about MY experiences with schizophrenia and schizophrenia is different for every individual to a degree.
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“My Life With Schizophrenia”

-Nicholas P. Wilde

June 19th 2016

-chapter 1, introduction

Allow me to start with a line and intro that might grab you.

Living with schizophrenia is like living in a haunted house 100% of the time. And I can’t escape it, even going to another location, the haunted house follows me.

You see, paranoia, and hallucinations are only two of the symptoms - they’re both scary as hell though. I have sound hallucinations in the form of people yelling at me, or insulting me, or threatening me. Supposedly they come from my own mind, so they know my greatest fears. They know what hurts most, and they know just how to use it to send me into a panic attack.

The paranoia gets so bad that I think people can read my mind over the internet when I’m playing multiplayer games. I begin to think I’m on a secret TV channel nobody tells me about that is broadcasted world wide just for people to joke about me and make fun of me.

It’s been a bumpy 23 years. I was diagnosed with social anxiety at age 13, and slowly the diagnosis progressed to schizoaffective that I have now, which is like having bipolar and schizophrenia combined.